You Need To Be Less Picky...
I am not that interested in men! There...I typed it! Haha! My family always tells me that I need to be less picky when it comes to dating men...They think I am straight! I still can't tell them how I really feel. I guess if a guy stole my heart, I would have to give him a chance, but it is so rare that I am ever even remotely interested in a guy.
My sister, who is 18 and I am 21, has this boy that she has been on and off dating for the last year or two. He is chubby and a total gamer as well as a competitive type. He comes over and sleeps on our sofa during the weekends, and God only knows what goes on between them...I so don't want to think about it. My sister loves cuddling with him, she says that he is perfect at it. But...He smells bad, and not only does he smell bad, he drinks and he forgets to shave, and...Now I see why I don't like guys.
After he leaves on Sunday, I usually get the third degree from my family. "Why don't you get a boyfriend?" They ask, as I lean back and sit manly style on the couch. Can't they see that I am just not interested in men? I have tried telling them in years past, but they don't listen! I told my mother when I was in high school, and she proceeded to tell me all about every form of sex. I went back into the closet after that.
Am I picky? Yes! I admit it. I have never slept with ANYONE!!! I am such a good girl, I have waited my whole life for my one true love, and a part of me wants them to wait for me too. I could understand them sleeping with one or two other people, but not more than that please!
But as for the "you need to be less picky" speech that I keep on getting from my family, well, they need to appreciate that I have a standard. I also have a brother, and he asks me on a regular basis if I have a boyfriend. "No..." I say. "What about that one dude who was calling you?" He asks me. "Well, we are just friends." I reply. And the conversation goes from there. He wants to know why I don't ever date the guys who are interested in me and I tell him that none of them ever interest me enough.
My conservative friends are the same way as he is. They want to know why I don't take a chance and date someone, especially someone from the church. I remember, not too far back, I was trying to be a good Christian girl. I was attending a Baptist church, and all the girls my age had crushes on the pastor's son. I never saw what was so awesome about him, in fact, he looked like Wallie Cleaver! I was convinced he was gay for the longest time. All the girls from that church went off to Christian colleges and came back with boyfriends. I didn't...I never cared enough! And I got questioned on it a lot. I also never wore skirts or dressed or acted like any of the other girls at church.
And as usual, my friends all told me "you need to be less picky! Of course you should date a good Christian guy, but...Perfection doesn't exist...Even the Bible says that."
Around that time, I decided that I didn't like church!!! I was bored. I no longer wanted to be told how to think or what was right and wrong. I didn't want to be told that men were better than women and I hated how I felt when I was there. Of course, the closeness was nice, but at the same time, I always felt judged. I wasn't out there or anything, but at the same time, they knew there had to be a reason for me never having a boyfriend. I had had one serious relationship...And they knew about it only because it was a guy. He is the only guy I have ever really dated...I have gone out on dates, but they were just that; dates!
Well...There it all is! I am tired of hearing that I need to be less picky because I like my standard! My standard is good and honestly, it keeps me safe! I don't get heartbroken every week because of it...And for those curious, I am bisexual and pretty open about it!
My sister, who is 18 and I am 21, has this boy that she has been on and off dating for the last year or two. He is chubby and a total gamer as well as a competitive type. He comes over and sleeps on our sofa during the weekends, and God only knows what goes on between them...I so don't want to think about it. My sister loves cuddling with him, she says that he is perfect at it. But...He smells bad, and not only does he smell bad, he drinks and he forgets to shave, and...Now I see why I don't like guys.
After he leaves on Sunday, I usually get the third degree from my family. "Why don't you get a boyfriend?" They ask, as I lean back and sit manly style on the couch. Can't they see that I am just not interested in men? I have tried telling them in years past, but they don't listen! I told my mother when I was in high school, and she proceeded to tell me all about every form of sex. I went back into the closet after that.
Am I picky? Yes! I admit it. I have never slept with ANYONE!!! I am such a good girl, I have waited my whole life for my one true love, and a part of me wants them to wait for me too. I could understand them sleeping with one or two other people, but not more than that please!
But as for the "you need to be less picky" speech that I keep on getting from my family, well, they need to appreciate that I have a standard. I also have a brother, and he asks me on a regular basis if I have a boyfriend. "No..." I say. "What about that one dude who was calling you?" He asks me. "Well, we are just friends." I reply. And the conversation goes from there. He wants to know why I don't ever date the guys who are interested in me and I tell him that none of them ever interest me enough.
My conservative friends are the same way as he is. They want to know why I don't take a chance and date someone, especially someone from the church. I remember, not too far back, I was trying to be a good Christian girl. I was attending a Baptist church, and all the girls my age had crushes on the pastor's son. I never saw what was so awesome about him, in fact, he looked like Wallie Cleaver! I was convinced he was gay for the longest time. All the girls from that church went off to Christian colleges and came back with boyfriends. I didn't...I never cared enough! And I got questioned on it a lot. I also never wore skirts or dressed or acted like any of the other girls at church.
And as usual, my friends all told me "you need to be less picky! Of course you should date a good Christian guy, but...Perfection doesn't exist...Even the Bible says that."
Around that time, I decided that I didn't like church!!! I was bored. I no longer wanted to be told how to think or what was right and wrong. I didn't want to be told that men were better than women and I hated how I felt when I was there. Of course, the closeness was nice, but at the same time, I always felt judged. I wasn't out there or anything, but at the same time, they knew there had to be a reason for me never having a boyfriend. I had had one serious relationship...And they knew about it only because it was a guy. He is the only guy I have ever really dated...I have gone out on dates, but they were just that; dates!
Well...There it all is! I am tired of hearing that I need to be less picky because I like my standard! My standard is good and honestly, it keeps me safe! I don't get heartbroken every week because of it...And for those curious, I am bisexual and pretty open about it!
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