Insight Into Love...

You know that school girl feeling you get when you meet someone you are physically attracted to? Well, Holly, the girl I had been kinda seeing was causing me to have those feelings. We went out three times this past weekend, and here is how it went.

1) On Friday night, I got ready and made myself look as good as I possibly could. I got a haircut and I got my eyebrows waxed and I was so excited to see Holly again. It had been two weeks since we had gone fishing, and I was so stoked to be seeing her again. My heart was in my throat. We were planning on meeting up with my friend Nichelle and her girlfriend Stacie at this pub, Mahooney's, but by the time we all arrived, the pub was packed! So we ended up going to Chinese food, which was good. Nichelle was high on something and hilarious. lol. I bought for myself and Holly and overall I thought the night went well. However, there was no hand holding or kissing or anything...She held back a lot.

2) She picked me up on Saturday night and we went to her Aunts house where she was dog sitting and we watched movies. We watched a scary one and cuddled a bit during it because I am easily scared, but that was the most we touched the whole time we were "dating." She even drove me home around midnight because she didn't want me to stay the night with her. I don't know what I was doing wrong...I tried to get her to talk intellectually with me, talked about tv and movies as well, everything! But she was just closed off.

3) We went and saw Whip It and I tried to hold her hand and she said it was awkward. Then I got a speech about how we are better as friends and we left it as that.

Am I confused? Yes! Is it okay? Yes!

Here is what I have figured out:

1. Your first "love" is not your last love.
2. Don't label yourself. Keep your options open in the love department and date date date! Don't be like "I'm gay" or "I'm straight" because your going to fall for the PERSON, not for the appearance/gender.
3. Nothing is the end of the world.
4. Never go backwards. Your exes are meant to be your exes, not your backup plans!
5. Don't change who you are for them. If they want you to change, stay friends and don't date!
6. Don't mess with religion/values. Those tend to be set in stone, so don't get a whole new set for the person you are seeing.
7. Take it one day at a time and keep smiling. Also, stay positive.

This is my advice!